What is next
July 24, 2008 – 10:31 pm. Posted by keroroI’ve always been in an environment that spoon feeds me. Army style. Well sort of. An example morning wake up 5am. 5.30am breakfast. 7.30pm exercise time. 9am lessons and so on…
Primary school, first couple of years I was in a child care, later part I was being taken care by relatives. Secondary school days I stayed in a hostel. Its pretty sad, I can’t join any extra curriculum activities nor go out after school.
Its straight back to the hostel and everything has been planned out. For the whole 5 years of my secondary school days was pretty much the same, I just follow the routine. I tried ways to get out of it but couldn’t. I was stuck.
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I finally broke out of the system when I left ‘legally’. I worked part time for various companies for a couple of years, my national slavery service was delayed a year because I was hospitalized for a minor operation.
Soon I was enlisted. I find myself getting used to the shit quite well. 2 years of slavery service soon breezed through. That was nothing. The shit gets real for the next 10 years. The reservist. They call you up for a period of time from a week to 4 weeks depending. So far max was 3 weeks for me. OH I’m getting carried away typing this.
So! 2 years in service. I’m getting spoon fed as well. Soon I was out of it. I find myself lost. I was all on my own without any instructions or time table. It may sound stupid but being spoon fed for years, it really is not easy pulling yourself up to do stuffs, planning your own schedule, life.
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I’ve been working in the same company now for over 5 years already. Soon I will be finishing my part time Diploma. My first proper certification. I’m really in a dilemma now. Maybe I haven’t really broke through this spoon fed thing. Even this part time Diploma was pushed to me by my manager. I’m taking a company sponsored scheme where I have to sign a bond with them.
I’m at a lost. Academically I really suck. Or maybe I’m just plain lazy. I don’t have the interest to further my studies anymore. Maybe I should take up a new language? Since I’m like so interested Japanese culture, games (which they release ONLY in Japanese language). Maybe certification related to my job?
I’m not young anymore. Maybe I should do something which will bring me food on the table instead? I find myself passion driven at times. Its not about the money. Then again on the topic of food on the table and the I’m not young anymore. Damn.
Ah my head! What is next?
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5 Responses to “What is next”
yeah, same sentiments…. cept that in a much better light. I recently got stringed by my friend who already have 2 degrees, 10 Dips and 10 over certifications…….
Too bad you are like tied with your company for the diploma thing. I dont sympathize with that kind of working scheme.
i’m the opposite of you actually. I’m pretty much not spoon fed, and sometimes i wish i am. Cause there are too much choices from young to choose from and the importance of money haven’t really sunk in yet till now. Maybe in the future it might, when i have to start paying for my own bills and stuffs. =\
how long is the bond? pay raise included?
isnt it good to be a cat? lol. eat & sleep. buahahaa
oh well. bond? very long. im too ashamed to mention it. total 3 years.
no pay raise confirmed. but if i were to break bond, i just have to pay the exact course fees.
no issues with that actually, not that i have to pay additional.
meh! :P